Right. I usually come here to complain, bitch, vent, and rant. Of course, about my fat.

I have been doing a lot more work since my last post. Of course, about my fat.

Today, stand big at 181 lbs. 19.4% (BMI), I am finally feeling like I have made some progress. I definitely worked on it. It didn’t come free. I used to think that I’d just miraculously be fit. But it doesn’t work that way. Funny it took 32 years for me to get it.

No matter where you are in this process of tracking your fat, just know that no matter how much I complained before, how much I felt like I was not making any progress, just keep that weak spark of hope going. I am slowly starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Get a friend. Get a few friends. Get a blog. Get someone who understands you, your struggles, and let someone besides you help you through this process. Just go back and see how bitter I was. How down I was. You may find a bit of hope in my human weakness.

I know I will probably have to rely on my this exact post to pick me up again in a few weeks or months ahead.

I have finally decided that my focus is going to be smaller, smaller than my fat, just focusing on my exercise as a routine in my life, and hopefully for the rest of my life. Small steps, big hope.