So, I ate. Lots. How could you not on your vacation. Especially visiting my home country. This is where real comfort food is.

I went to the gym 4 times and swam 3 times during my twenty-day stay in Penang. Not as many times as I would like. But I went.

My biggest fear was falling off the track, and lost the momentum that I started in January in visiting the gym three times a week.

Some of you may know, I fell into a depression pit when I came back from Malaysia. I don’t know exactly why or how. I know it’s related to the trip, travel, tiredness, and routine change. But it wasn’t pretty. The only good thing is, I went back to the gym the day I got back from the airport. I’m consistent with my three-day visit.

Well, I mostly write here when I’m bumped. I am disappointed, felt like a loser, see no results, but fortunately, I am not giving up yet. I know how bad it could have been if I am not exercising. I am really dieting as well. That’s probably my problem. I am not bingeing, I’m not overeating, but I am not restricting my diet either. I guess that’s why it’s taking longer to see any result.

As of today, I am 187 lbs. Yes, I have put on 2 lbs from the trip. Or from exercising. I don’t know. My scale has a body mass index number. That is going down (20.4 today. It’s about 5 points less than the counter). A kind soul told me that that’s normal for exercising. But I’m beginning to question that. I want to see more results.

I know this is not a competition, but seeing everyone else losing way way more than I, is quite discouraging. I guess when you are losing, it feels more like a competition. Where is my result?

Last night’s workout felt really good. But today’s results aren’t. Fuck fat!

(Could still be my leftover depression writing.)

I was 183lbs 3 month ago, now I m at 172lbs, I just need to get some weight down & I will be happy with it, most importantly I m dying to get rid off my droppy stomach, urgh. . how’s you guys doing ?