Andy: That’s why we’re doing it together. I know exactly how you feel. Yes, you have more to lose than I do. But our struggles are the same in a way. I think being aware of your fat is good. Being obessed with it is not. I do both. Ultimately, it’s your health. Well, looks too, but that’s the bonus. Now I’ll tell you my stories.

I weight a bit over 197 lbs this morning. More than before my trip. That’s to be expected. I thought I was going to put on 10 to 15 lbs. That’s probably not possible. But I did feel fat the whole time I was on the cruise.

Now, I posted on Ongline Podcast that become thin and young by comparison when I was on the cruise ship. But that was comparing myself with people thirty to fourty years older than me. This is what I found during the trip at Ketchikan, Alaska, which I thought was quite apt.

Am I obsessed with my being fat? Yes. Am I fat? Yes. It’s not easy as some think. It’s not always laziness. For me, laziness is a part of it. But not entirely true.

I went to the gym and did a 35-minute session of cardio 5 days out of the 7 days on the cruise. And still gained 3 to 4 lbs. I can only imagine without those exercise. The sad thing is, that’s more exercise than I did for the last two years. Yes, it’s terrible. I’m working on it. It’s a matter of choice. And I chose the easy way out, which is not to think about it. I chose the easy way out, which is not to get up and exercise. I chose my path. I have to re-select my new path. Hopefully a thinner one.

Now that I’m back to my regular routine. Workout seems impossible again. But I’ll try my best. Hopefully to be inspired by the others here, and inspire the others here if I’m good.

Andy. Small steps. Tiny little goals. I think the get into the routine is harder than doing it. If it’s small little exercise, even when we’re busy we think we can handle it. Even starting at five to ten minutes would be better than nothing. I’m trying to work two to three days into my week for some kind of exercise. While watching my diet, sensibly. I’ll talk about food next time. I’m hungry, gotta get a candy…just kidding.

Work that fat whores!

Well, I did my weekly weigh in and I only gained 1 pound, up to 283. I haven’t really dieted all this week because it has been so frickin’ busy. I literally would be busy all day and barely enough time (or energy) to get to the gym. This week (hopefully) will be different and I can get some quality exercize time.

But I am having an issue. Usually, I live my life and its all hunky dory…but lately i’ve been feeling fat. I’m more conscious of my fat and I feel like a skinny person inside of a fat suit. I can feel my gut and my fat and all of my fat. Bleh. Slightly depressed about it but I think it’ll give me motivation to get off of my ass and get some exercise. I haven’t had anything to eat (Monday) because I feel kind of bloated. I think i’m going to catch up on my reading and then get something to eat when I get hungry and not when its convenient…

It sucks being fat :/

Sunday, stayed at home whole day, after my jogging session ended early in the morning, I went to market & bought Chinese style BBQ pork ! I know I know I shouldn’t have, but can’t help it, when I saw it I can’t control but go ahead & buy some.

Well, I controlled quantity that I ate , I took a 3 hours nap ends up skipping the lunch, so I took early dinner later on. My weight goes up half pound, I just knew it will happen due to my dinner with friends yesterday night.

I think everyone should be real proud of me today! Well, at least I am proud of myself! I got up this morning and all I had was 1 piece of bacon, SERIOUSLY, I know, I know, you’re probably giggling, but I’m serious! I wasn’t very hungry for some reason when I got up this morning. I didn’t have anything until later this afternoon, my family came home and they brought me half of a personal pan pizza, yes, I said HALF! Then, later on tonight I had a little bit more, my Mom & her husband came in to visit and we grilled burgers and baked fries, I only had 1 burger, which, I normally have 2 and I only had a very small amount of fries with ketchup! Thats it! Thats all I have had!!! As far as exercise goes, I went around the yard this morning and took pictures of the cats. I also walked home from my sisters house tonight. I needed to do more exercise, but, at least I didn’t do nothing. NOW, lets try this tomorrow. It will be a lot harder tomorrow since I have a family reunion to go to, there will be tons of food there.

Update: I had a snack.

I think that was a very healthy snack to have.

After a week of being extremely busy, I am finally able to come back and make a post. I didn’t do too terrible this week, I watched what I ate, I didn’t drink so much sweet tea, I ate salads, I did eat un-healthy things, only because I didn’t have a choice, but I watched how much I ate of it. So, I think I done decently this week however I am wanting to do even better next week. The good thing though about being busy is that I don’t think about food so much.

The day before yesterday I saw a shirt in my closet that I had not worn in ages, I thought I’d put it on and see if it fit me, I was SHOCKED that I was able to actually put it on without it feeling like a tight corset or girdle! So surely, the diet is helping me as well.

My birthday is Wednesday (the 13th), hopefully I won’t have too many cakes to eat!

Today is my birthday ( 9th Sept ), I received a lovely cheese birthday cake from my friends, I had 1 slice of them, tonight my friends will bring me for a dinner, Yes, I will still watch my diet, well if I took a lot food tonight, then the next day will definately be my fasting day. Oh by the way, I lost another 1 pound. (*v*)

I know I said I stopped dieting for the week on Madge’s Yeast Radio today, however, I haven’t, I have just been EXTREMELY busy and have had no time to post anything, hopefully, I’ll be able to post something a little later today. The meeting I had today got canceled, the life changing event has to wait until Monday!

Post to ya later!

My diet status ~ still carry on strictly without fail 3 times a week jogging, watched out food intake, I lost 1 pound lately
A diet tip to share, I eat raw cucumber to replace a meal.

As you see from the picture, it is quite big size for Asian cucumber, occasionally, I will eat raw cucumber with a little of tomato sauce, for breakfast, lunch or even dinner, it fills up my stomach so I wont feel hungry, & the best part is, cucumbers are high in calcium, fat free & very low content of Carbohyrate & calories. Its ideal for weight control.

This morning I ate cucumber & a glass of low fat milk
p/s : when I put cucumber into my mouth, something pops up in my mind , hehe

     Okay, this week was the first full week of classes and so i’ve had a hectic week. Sorry for not posting guys but hopefully I will be able to post more as things quiet down to a relative degree.

     Okay…I must have worked a miracle because this week I haven’t exercised AT ALL….no low fat foods (quite the opposite actually…hot dogs and pasta and spearmint jellies…), I think I drank my liver away this weekend, I have raided the Cheetos factory (Wal-Mart had 2 bags for $2…I was weak…)

…and I lost two pounds….down to 282…

I will be available for blessings later *Chuckles!* Although I think my insides will look like crap. But I definately need to get my non tired ass back to the gym….I think my motivation will be the extremely delicious guys that work out at the gym…naked….in the shower…

 ….where’s my gym bag…

Today I went and bought some clothes. The only store that has clothes that will actually fit me is the Casual Male Big & Tall. It takes over an hour to get there and I go to it once a year, or try to, if I can afford it. The clothes are expensive! BUT, they’ve got clothes that will actually fit me! So, reluctantly, I pay for them…well, tonight Dad did because he bought them as an early birthday gift for me (my birthday is next week, yay, will be 21, AND I’M NOT going to get drunk).

Anyways, back to my thoughts, while I was at the store today, I kept thinking, with stores like these…whats the point in losing weight? I KNOW, I KNOW, I honestly don’t plan on NOT trying to lose weight, but thats the thought I had. I don’t think I’m making any sense, lol. But, it just got me to thinking about how much fat people are catered to, I mean, fast food, drive thru’s, fat people clothing stores, all-you-can-eat buffets, etc.

What are your thoughts?